Honesty!

So the kiddo was giving the usual trouble of not finishing his milk quickly in the morning. I was sitting next to him reading the paper, and was telling him that I will visit a 2 month old baby today.
He asked what his name was and I said its not yet decided.

And then started this very honest conversation!
Sid: So you named me Siddhant because you thought I would be a good boy. (giggling uncontrollably) You were wrong no?

Me: (surprised) Probably, so would you be a good person now?

Sid: Maybe when you die!


Kids, I tell you!

jaane kya chaahe man baawra

Feeling blue and what better than to think of life and death in such a state of mind huh!?

Heard news of some deaths recently, one of them caused by an accident and another by a long illness.
This got me thinking about whether to live how you want to, or live with making some compromises for accommodating your loved ones.
What will make you happy? In this pursuit of happiness, will you trample over other's (your loved ones') wishes and happiness. Will your loved ones' hopes and wishes really matter or will you adjust for the sake of loved ones? Is there a middle ground? Or rather should there be a middle ground?
Sometimes you are better off thinking of the 'big picture', that you are inconsequential in the grand plan of the universe and let things be, ignore, move on, but sometimes your universe is only you, so be greedy!?

What if you live for a 100 years, will living greedily make you happy? But then, if you die tomorrow, what use was living for others?

Yeh Lamhe..

Yash Chopra is no more! :( He just completed 80 years and his last movie 'Jab tak hain jaan' is releasing on Nov 13th. Oh, the irony of it all! Sigh! 

Being a Veer-Zaara fanatic that I am, I thought I will write a post. 

Who can forget his romantic masterpieces - Silsila, Kabhi Kabhi, Lamhe (yes, i loved that movie), DTPH and more recently Veer-Zaara! I won't talk about Deewar, Daag etc. as they don't fit into the romance genre. His approach to romance, sometimes ahead of his times (Lamhe), sometimes portraying the complexities in relationships (kabhi kabhi, silsila) in such a dignified way is truly marvelous. The women, esp, are strongly etched characters, confident and free-willed too. (rekha, jaya, waheeda, sridevi).   

One thing that comes to my mind now is this song - Ek dooje ke vaaste, from DTPH. Check out this lovely song. The theme is so sweet; the diff couples and diff portrayal of love make it a very feel-good kind of a song. :) Posting this song for 1 more reason, for Yash Chopra's cameo! Can you spot him? 

...And since each day's the same way...There's no longing for the past....

(don't know from where I found this one, but it was safely tucked away in my collection, stumbled upon it today and thought i'll share it. Beautifully written)

When tomorrow starts without me
And I'm not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me;

I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today,
While thinking of the many things,
We didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too;

But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,

And said my place was ready,
In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye
For all my life, I'd always thought,
I didn't want to die.

I had so much to live for,
So much left yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for a while,
I'd say good-bye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realized,
That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories,
Would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through Heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne,

He said, "This is eternity,
And all I've promised you.
Today your life on earth is past,
But here life starts anew.

"I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
And since each day's the same way
There's no longing for the past.

"You have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true.
Though there were times
You did some things
You knew you shouldn't do.

"But you have been forgiven
And now at last you're free.
So won't you come and take my hand
And share my life with me."

So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here, in your heart.

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tere bina saans bhi chalthi hain..tere bina dil bhi dhaDakta hain..
yaad nahi tha yaad aaya..

One of my favorite lines in the recent past. The song is good too, very simple and lovable. (Salaam aaya from Veer)

But what struck me more is the way the girl simply says these lines and conveys so much!

At one level it talks about the girl's realization that she loves him, but still at the same time, can survive without him.
But I suddenly thought that it is true even when someone, who means the world to you, passes away right? You still survive. Your heart beats, you breathe...
Yes, you survive..you manage to get through life, but can you live life?
Probably with time? Hopefully..with time..

p.s: these are just thoughts from a very boring ride back home. Guess I need to download more songs into my cellphone. What say? ;-)

Meanwhile you can also listen to a few other good simple songs - dil toh bachcha hain jee (Ishqiya) and zindagi do pal ki (Kites).

to be or not to be?!

With the uncertainty that life is, you never know how much of 'life' one gets to live! You might be the center of the universe one moment and the next moment..poof! You are gone. With that will be gone your thoughts, dreams, relationships..

Keeping this in mind, is it really ok to live the way we want to?

Do what you want to do, be what you want to be. Make your own decisions without considering external factors or people, no matter who they are.. parents, siblings, spouse, children? Even though such decisions end up hurting them. If you live this way, then, when you die, people might not shed a tear, might not remember you for long...? But do we really go through this life to be remembered 'nicely' when we are gone?!? To hear people say - 'Oh! He/She was such a good person' 'Rest in peace' blah blah, and the worst part.. you wouldn't even be alive to hear it!!! ;-)

On the other hand, we get a weird (couldn't find a better word) satisfaction giving away a few things/ambitions/dreams for the people who mean a lot to us. Not to forget, if others too act selfishly, where would we stand??! That thought is scary.

Uff..I can go on and on re-visiting both sides of the coin. Maybe the trick is to find a fine, delicate balance.

That's it!! a fine balance!!! (Few people, 2 actually, would rather say that the halo has made its official re-entry!)
Hmm..where should I start looking?